Captured in a flash …. not really …
‘A waiting person is a patient person. The word patience means the willingness to stay where we are and live the situation out to the full in the belief that something seen there will manifest itself to us.” – Henri Nouwen.
That basically captures the essence of me as I sat in the balcony: iPhone propped on my knees and trained on the horizon, snapping whenever I saw lightning, and basically hoping that I managed to capture something. Half-an-hour and lots of fake-out photos later, I managed to capture that photo.It certainly wouldn’t win any prizes – grainy as it is – but I felt proud that I managed to capture it. Why? maybe because I learnt that I could wait, I could cultivate patience, hope, and resilience. Or maybe, forget all those lofty virtues, because I know from experience that it is damn hard to capture something as fleeting as lightning, on an iPhone 4.
But in the end, even if there was nothing to show for my waiting, it would have been okay – because sometimes witnessing and experiencing is what matters more.
No words of my own
‘Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher a storm, but to add colour to my sunset sky.” Rabindranath Tagore (1861-1941)
It’s amazing when someone from another time and space is able to capture and express what I feel but am not eloquent enough to say. In all my moments of speechlessness, it is the beauty of nature that takes the words away.
Who am I? The Riddle
How do you see yourself? When others say things to you and about you, does that cause a distortion in your own image? (yes, I know – it’s a very cheap way of linking that to the photos above). How do you reconcile those two so that you are able to get the clarity of who you are? Many a time, we are all formed in a way by the opinions, thoughts and actions of those around us. That’s good in some ways, especially so when they are role models that inspire us. But what if they are not so inspiring, and their words and actions are driven by ‘baser’ motivations wrapped up in ‘nobility’ and topped off by ‘this will be for their own good’?
So I referred to my favourite saint, St Francis, and does he have some mega high standards!
“Holy Wisdom destroys Satan and all his subtlety; Holy Simplicity destroys all the wisdom of this world and all the wisdom of the body; Holy Poverty destroys the desire of riches and avarice and the cares of this world ….” and it gets harder from then on. What’s a lowly human supposed to do? – crawl up in a corner and eat chocolates?
But that would’ve just caused too much inflammation and allergies so I referred to one of my favourite songs, The Riddle by Five for Fighting. The title would already tell you that there wouldn’t be a straight up answer, but I love that song; “in the scheme of things we’re nothing at all … there’s a reason for the world, you and I.” It’s a conundrum – like “Remember you are unique, just like everyone else.”
In the end, for me, even though the words of St Francis are hard to live by, remembering it may help me live a little closer to my own integrity, and then maybe I will know the reason why I am in this world.
After a long break
It’s been a long break since my last entry. So many things have happened. I’ve moved to a new city, moved into a new apartment, started a new job. All within the span of a month. All the routines that I had in the last year have all been shot to pieces. I feel a little battered and there’s nothing like a picture to tell a thousand words.
But unlike the abandoned truck that will probably not have another opportunity to hit the roads and cruise, and enjoy the scenes and places out there, I know I will.
Looking forward to 2013
2012 has been a great year. I’ve learnt a lot, been taught a lot, had my path lighted and guided. That’s all in a nutshell. I’ve also picked up a new skill – drawing. And it’s unleashed – at times – some creative thoughts that I never thought I had. I look forward to more of what 2013 has to offer!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Good news
It’s coming to the year – and I wanted to end the year on the stories of bravery, inspiration, hope and goodwill. Stories that reminds us that there are good people in the world, and that everyone has it in them to do good, and to use our resources for the good of those who share the world with us.
Health news
When our talents and resources are used for the good of others.
http://www.guardian.co.uk/science/2012/jun/21/medical-research-health
From the Ashes
It may destroy the physical, but not the spirit.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2247883/The-house-Superstorm-Sandy-knock-down.html
Humanity
People who relight one’s faith in humanity.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/11/29/larry-deprimo-nypd-cop-gives-homeless-boots_n_2209178.html
Against all Odds
We may not be born with everything we need, but we can overcome, as she shows us.
Harmony
We can bridge the differences if we see each other as humans, made to live alongside each other.
Acceptance and Inclusion
Neurotypical folks taking the time and effort to understand people with disabilities.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/12/23/santa-claus-uses-sign-lan_n_2347084.html
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-20596987
Bystander-positive actions
Kids leap to action to save the day.
http://www.king5.com/news/local/Children-help-driver-pull-over-school-bus-in-Milton-146673005.html
Furry Friends
The dog that helps others, gets a little help himself. What goes around, comes around.